This is me posting after 849 days together.
Today is your first day after your eye surgery.
Everything here seems really really sweet and memorable to me.
I really missed our days without money problems.
Since money became a problem,
we fought hard to settle it.
Eventually, it has led to today.
I really really miss my baobei laopo..
MISSING HER VERY VERY BADLY!
Going back to the place where everything started really pinched my heart very painfully.
I really hope to change back time..
Erase all our sad and bad memories..
But i know that is all impossible.
I accept what fate has brought up to us and i have to admit my mistakes.
We are now drifted apart in relationship and distance once again.
You always say and pushed everything to me.
Success or not, is depending on me and how I work.
What about you there? Will you be the same as before?
Loving and caring with all your heart? With all your LOVE?
Will everything be even better perhaps in future?
I really don't know so much. All i know, is all will not be the same.
I am really suffering in pain, No one knows my pain.
You also had neglected my feelings inside.
You seemed not to care about my feelings.
Sigh. Back to kampar. I really feel helpless.
Looking back at everything that we created!
I really want back my baobei~!!!!!
You really have no idea how much my heart hurts and bleeds.
Anyhow, i know you have no regrets.
All i can say is just to wish you all the best.
I will be at the finishing line one day.
But on that day, i am really not sure..
Will you be there cheering me on or even has left the spot we agreed to meet.
Right now, its easy for you to say move on.
Why don't you try to feel what I am feeling?
I really would want you to try and feel how I am feeling.
Nevertheless..what is done is done..
Take good care and just hope to see you at the finishing line one day..
If you are not there, I won't blame you,
Like you always think, say and feel.
Its my fault. Yup. True to say. Its all my fault.
See you again in 2 years time, baobei..
For now, I need to recover and find myself once again..
No one will be able to heal me, you better hope no one can..
I told you before, I only want to be with you and depend all my love on you.
KEEP IT THERE, when its not, you will eventually lose my heart.
I finally know what is the reason that I loved you before and still loving you.
I pray that you will still keep the reason till that day we meet again.
I am setting this course for us, like it or not.
We have to go through it for our LOVE.
We shall meet again 2 years later in September in KL.
If we already do not fit each other, I guess to you,
You will be away, I won't have much to say.
We will see..September 2017..
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