寂寞

害怕一个人

害怕寂寞

尤其害怕自己

伤害你

我爱你

宝贝

Our Journey Together*

A journey for two person,

A path of life together hand in hand,
A path of faith together heart with heart,
A journey life long living faithfully by each other,
An endless journey of love <3

There may be fears in each journey,
There may be problems in each move,
There may be spikes in each step,
There may be nails on each road,

But never fear my dear,
There will be me to chase your fears away,
There will be me to solve each problem we come across,
There will be me to sweep each step before you take,
There will be me to blunt those nails to pebbles on each road,

Baby need not fear,
For I am here,
My heart is here,
Let me bring you from there to here,
Letting you hear only cheers and laughter of life,
As life is to be happy and wonderful.

It is all poeple's thoughts that made this world look bad,
It is all people's words that made this world seemed bad,
It is all people's perception that made this world corrupt and ugly,
It is all people's disbelieve that made this world cruel and dark...

When the truth is,
This world is all depending on how you see it,
With me,
Positive thoughts will make our world peace and ease,
Nice words will make our world lovely and sweet,
Serene perception will make our world pretty and wonderful as can be,
Strong faith and solid believe will make our world a happy ending one,

As you can see the comparison between good and bad,
Look forward in a great and wonderful life than to ponder at a dark and depressing current state.
The thing about life as I can see it is a lovely and happy one.
Your bibi can live here and erase all my sad memories,
Do you really know why?
Because all those memories here in Kampar in the past do not mean anything else to me..
Honestly, because you are the one I care the most!
Nothing else in this world would matter to me any more!

My times all for you,
There is never a moment my mind is not thinking about you*
It is always and constantly about you..
Everything that revolves in my world is either about you or for you~!!


My dearest baby,
I want to make you the happiest girl in life before 9/9/2017!
I want to make you the happiest women in life after 9/9/2017!
This is because, I will bring you a new life..
A life so much better and will only be better from the moment you live with me..
Dearest baby, I love you always and forever*

两个人的旅行

我喜欢旅行

但没去过哪里

但很快的

我就要开始我和他的旅行了

回到一个即熟悉又陌生的地方

那里曾经装载着许多不愉快的记忆

 

而这次     另一个他将要帮我抚平那些不美好的回忆

别人告诉我   选择了   就要微笑去接受

我很尝试的去接受     但难免有多多的不舍得

回忆太多   埋怨太多    悔恨太多

而心太小

是不是应该敞开胸怀      接受一切的不公平呢

希望像你说的     过了好几年之后

是带着荣耀     而不是伤痕

我怕痛     这次可以不要再受伤了吗？

 

Moving closer as hours pass*

my dearest baby~*
that date that bibi posted and set is the latest date de..
surely can be earlier than that ler..hahaha..well, bibi finished eating and back home ler..
after eat already come back to see baby de posts..
cause bibi know i need to post ler..got feeling ask me go post something..
ahaha..then come back here can see baby de post wor..
but the thing is, it is so complicated that even google translate cannot tell me :(
lolz..baby de mandarin really good le..just like english using lots of metaphors and strong vocabulary..

hmm..guessing that baby feeling would be really mixed up and tensed as well as time passes by..
bibi really love you very much ler..just want baby to be happy..want baby have happiness in life*
there is nothing i want more than happiness for you ler..thats why bibi shifting house and working so hard hope that baby would be happy and no need do so much work ler..muacks muacks*
wan baby to be with me and enjoy life de hor..sayang sayang baobei lots!!

tomorrow got class liao ler..lolz..kinda sad sad need go class ler..
but actually is excited when can go class with my baobei laopo ler..
hahaha..muacks muacks*
bibi really happy de hor..waiting baby to be with bibi ler..
sayang sayang baobei lots~!!
guessing baby is sleeping soft and sweetly yea..
i miss you and i really really wish baby beside me sleeping ler..
cause bibi can hug hug baobei in my arms..
can protect my baby from all harms and sadness in life..
there will only be warmth and happiness in our hearts and lives together..
i love you my dearest baby..left 10 days to be with you liao ler..
this means is lesser than 240 hours liao lor..wow~!!

anyhow, baby dont be sad sad kays..
bibi will be there for you de baobei*
sayang sayang baby~love you!!
bibi will be sleeping liao ler..
sleepy liao for now..hahaha..
really really piggy de bibi yeah..
tomorrow after class would be shifting house again ler..
sayang baby*
guessing within 2 days all will be done already lor..
waiting for baby to be with me!! muacks muacks*

纠结

倒数离开的日子

递交辞职信的那天

百般交集的心情

体会到人情冷暖 

让我不禁想要仰天长叹     

有些人   看似如此的真    却流露出丝丝的假

真伪    让我怀疑起自己是否在游离于虚无缥缈的世界

不曾想过要逼自己成长

总想一天过一天

浑浑噩噩    没什么不好

日复一日的生活    重复的生活节奏

似乎迷失了生活的意义

我为什么而活着

而为了什么来到这个世界

深思....

迷惘未来雕塑未完成的路

那延绵不绝的路

选择    是与非

究竟谁与谁会成为我的过客

究竟破碎的感觉    是不是会随时间而成为过眼云烟

纠结..

Wedding =)

 *Countdown for our wedding 1567days 4hours 55mins 1sec*

Have u check it is a good day for us?? 

COuntdown

Countdown the day to be with u my Dear~

**Happiness**

baby,
this is a song I long wanted you to listen..
I hope baby would know my heart..i really love you~

A change of a life-time, just waiting for you my baby~

to my dear lovely baby,
i know these and recent days you are suffering sadness,

my dear baby,
all i can say for now is just to hope baby hang on..
hanging on there, i will be with you very soon..
taking you away from the sorrow and sadness in life,
giving you a better tomorrow,
one thing you should know about is,
the election asked for ubah, but still failed..
but you can, just follow bibi..
your life will surely change, to be better and best!!

in my heart, all i wanted to give you is happiness and freedom..
away from all of sadness which is conquering you now..
you bibi feels it in my heart..just that i did not tell out to you..
everynight knowing that you need to cry out to release tense,
everytime sweeping floor, you need to cry to release pain,
all these tears and cries, 
makes me more and more wanting to take you away,
all these because i do feel the pain that you are feeling my baby!
its hurting me as well, knowing i am far and could not do anything..
everynight, before i sleep i do 2 things..
1 pray to god, that you will be blessed and freed from sadness..
1 to think and think hard on how to give you a better day!
some nights i cant sleep cause of the topics i cant settle,
such as? worrying you condition and situation there..
i really worry, if there might be something makes you really sad again..
i just wanted baby to leave as soon as you can ler,
so that your life would be recovering from the hurt and wounds of past pains..
bibi really love you..all my heart wanting to give you a change in life..
to be better and happier..
never ever need to scared..

everyday when you wake up,
it would be me, sleeping beside you,
waking together with you ^@^
every meal we have,
it would be me, eating together with you..
every tear that you drop,
it would be me, wiping it away and hugging you..
every smile you make, would be me smiling back at you..

i know that you are very worried about future with me,
but theres only one thing i would really want baby to know..
I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART,
CHERISH YOU WITH MY WHOLE LIFE,
FAITHFULLY TRUSTING YOU WITH MY WHOLE SOUL,
SINCERELY BEING WITH YOU WITH MY WHOLE LIFE~!!

no matter what happens,
i am the one you can rely on,
i am the one who will protect you from all harms,
i am the one who will never ever leaver you in your life,
i am the one who will only love and beloved by you,

just wanting baby be happy,
not baby being sad, suffering and tortured..
cause when you are sad, there will not be a smile on my face..
cause you are my love, my wife, my life..

my family is all ready to receive you,
with their love, you are a part of us,
and we are a part of you, let this be a new life,
for you my dear baby, to be loved,
we do not ask anything for return,
just your sincere heart and love,
our family will be ready to sacrifice for you~!!

dont be sad, just be glad,
you have me, you have my family too~!!
try asking any friends, would their in-law family accept them without conditions?
YES, my mother and father did not ask anything or expects anything..
they want you to be happy with me too..thats all they want..
my dear baby, dont be sad anymore,
the path that makes you sad will end,
at the moment i hold on to your hand and bring you into your new and happy life!

dear baby,
your bibi here loves you for everything you are,
never minding your down points, no one is perfect,
but baby must remember, our love is already reaching its perfection..
we can make our dreams come true,
a fairy-tale happy ending,
your bibi, like prince-charming,
coming all the way from his castle,
to the house which you stay,
and bring you, Germaine (story is Cinderella) back to my palace.
with happiness and life-time loving each other!

baby, anytime you want,
i am always here ready for you*
just want you to be happy, never sad..
dont worry, your bibi is very reasonable and considerable!
i know how you may feel, stressed cause fear and worry..
let me just tell baby, it would be a positive change, and for the best in your life~

i love you my baby,
always and forever,
here, i give my words to you,
as long as my heart beats and i am breathing,
its all my love to you, only you and no one else but you,
Germaine Koh Xin Yi~*

Smile and be happy kays~!

End

每个故事     都会有自己的结局

我亲手为自己谱写了一段走过泪水的内容

而结局是悲是喜     我害怕面对    更不想去知道未来的路怎么走

现在的我    只是个正在逼自己去接受事实的孩子

一个今后将离开家庭的臂膀      带着伤口离开的孩子

第二次     真的是第二次

我踩出这个家     

而这次我不敢奢望有回来的可能

原来在伤口上洒盐

真的很痛    痛得很真实     却又不得已的痛

雨过是真的会有天晴吗